Dear Mars,
When you hear a song that means the world to you its like you found the song of your life. For me, that’s Hurricane.
Hurricane was the first song I heard off of This Is War and it was as though something clicked. People can say how they hate the techno in the song, but for me the techno is what made the song.
Hurricane is the one word I can use to describe my life in 2009. No other word can capture my feelings as perfectly as ‘hurricane’ can.
In Feb of ’09 my grandmother died suddenly. She was only 70. I had 6 hours to say goodbye to a woman who had been a part of my life since the day my mother told her she was pregnant. I knew she had problems with her body. And it is likely I will inherit these problems. My life got worse from then on. Her funeral came and went. It was when my mother, my sister and I were driving to the shops because, well, everyone needs food to live right? In our letterbox was a letter. That letter made my life utter hell from that very moment to now.
My aunty had taken the action of getting lawyers involved and had said nastily in this letter that she would take us to court and force us to move. Not more than 2 weeks later my boy friend had dumped me by txt, and even had the nerve to get another girl to do his dirty work for him.
There is something unnerving when you hear your mother call her self a failure because she can’t protect her children.
In the end, we moved. We gave in. We could not take the pain and the pressure. Feb 1st was my dear grandmother’s birthday, the day we moved, and the day I stopped talking to half my family.
That was my hurricane, not so techno but still. It felt as though I would never get to back Kansas, (that being my happy place- hahah).
In a way, becoming an Echelon saved me from myself. I am so grateful towards, you - Jared, Tomo, and Shannon. Because of you I did not do anything stupid. Because of you, I met these people who know what its like. I met these wonderful people who some of them I consider to be my best friends.
When I am asked what 30 Seconds to Mars means to me, I can’t answer because I know the answer is in my heart but I sometimes words fail me.
You could ask me what their music means to me and all I think of is From Yesterday and its sheer epic-ness and all I feel is speechless. All I can think is that Mars means so much I can’t breathe. I have even banned myself from watching any live videos, because all I can think is, I’m going to be there in August, I’m going to be watching 30 Seconds to Mars play live in front of my eyes. IN FRONT OF MY EYES! IN MY EARS! And it makes me cry.
People say that in New Zealand you cannot be sued, I beg to differ. Because I nearly was, and Mars helped to save me, (just not for 30 million).
Emma, Wellington, New Zealand
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