A New Light

i've been a 30 Seconds To Mars fan for around 4 years now, but i only joined the echelon around 2 years ago. I researched the band when i heard The Kill on the radio, i instantly fell in love with the music.



In my second year of secondary school, i became suicidal and in depression. 30 Seconds To Mars' music helped me through this. This was around the time when i joined the echelon family. Finely i felt like i belonged somewhere and there were people here i could relate to, who understood me. I felt cut off from my friends, especially my family, and felt alone in the world.



My parents are really religious and brought me and my sisters up very strictly. I was tired of people expecting me to be like this or that, expecting me to do things and being tied down by all the rules. I wanted to end everything and be free from it all, and i even thought of running away from home, but the echelon and the guys, jared, shannon and tomo, helped me through all this. The kindness of the echelon and the amazing leadership of the guys made me open my eyes and see how big and wonderful the family is and life. Jared, Shannon and Tomo are all so inspiring and loving and amazing in so many ways and i look up to them so much.


Ever since joining the echelon, so many things have changed. I see that noone is perfect, but i still try and see the good in all and overlook their faults. I try to be grateful for what i have and help those in need of it. I always try to look on the brighter side of life. I am slowly reconnecting with my family and my friends mean the world to me. I still feel suicidal at times but 30 Seconds To Mars' music stop me feeling that way.

Sometimes i feel as if my depression will kill me, and other times it feels like im on top of the world. There seems to be a fortress around my mind. There's reality, and then theres a river and on the other side is me and my imaginary world, where everything is alright and there is no hurt. The bridge that connects the two worlds is the echelon. The only thing that keeps me sane is 30 Seconds To Mars. "Did you ever believe? Were you ever a dreamer?" yes, yes i am. I am still fighting the depression, but i know i will always have the echelon, forever in my heart.


All my love, Jasveer
Birmingham, UK